Nescafe Ad "Para Kanino Ka Bumabangon?"

Malinaw, simple at derechong tanong pero halos malaos na ang patalastas na yan sa telebisyon pero bakit ndi ko pa din nasasagot.. Ngyun na lang.

Ilang beses na tinanong sa akin yan dati pero ndi ko makuhang sagutin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Kahit ndi katotohanan na sagot ndi ko pa din nagawa, ngayon na lang..

Para kanino ba ako bumabangon? Ngayon ko naintindihan. Ngayon ko nasagot.

Bumabangon ako para sa aking dakilang ina na walang ibang hiniling at nabigay kundi ang taos puso at buong buo niang pagmamahal sa akin at sa buong pamilya namin na walang hinihintay na kapalit kahit ano man. Nag kusa sya. Magkukusa din kame. Ang pagmamahal ndi hinihingi. Binibigay at tinatanggap ito ng buong buo.

Bumabangon din ako sa umagang kay ganda dahil sa aking mga ayaw bitawan na mga pangarap. Hindi natatapos ang araw ganun din ang buhay na meron ka. Ituloy ang pangarap.

"Walang susuko. Ang sumuko, talo!"


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Family Frustrations

Kanina habang nakikipagsiksikan ako sa mrt sabe ko sa sarili ko habang tulala ako.

"Ang gusto ko lang naman, ako na ang magpaaral sa mga kapatid ko, magbigay ng baon, gumastos sa mga projects nila, bumili ng grocery para may kinakain sila bago pumasok at pag uwi nila.

Magbigay ng pang gastos kay mama at papa. Hindi naman sila maluho. Simple lang mamuhay. kahit onti, kahit magkano ok na sila dun. Mabilan ko lang ng gusto si mama at papa.

Mailabas ko sila para kumain, manood ng sine, gumala, maidala ko sa mga lugar na ndi pa nila napupuntahan at nararanasan. Ma-idate ko sila.

Gusto ko lang naman na maging Provider ako sa pamilya tutal graduate nko ng college, panganay ako at matanda na din ako.

Gusto ko lang naman na maranasan din nila kung ano nararanasan ko pag nasa labas, nakakapunta kahit saan at nakakain din nila kung ano nakain ko."

Simple lang ang buhay ng pamilya ko pero bakit ung simple na un ndi ko magawa. Bakit ang bagal ng pagkakataon na mangyari un. Bakit? Alam kong darating un pero kelan pa? Matanda na sila, lumalaki na mga kapatid ko. Kelan pa? Kelan?

Kumikilos naman ako. Nagtatrabaho naman ako kaliwat kanan. Pero bakit ganun pa din? Wala pa din. Wala!

I Am Blog. I Am Casper.

Oportunista

Ang opportunity ay parang pagsakay sa isang mrt train. Minsan ibibigay at makakaupo ka ng maluwag pero meron lang pinipiling oras. Minsan naman ang opportunity na hinihingi mo mailap, masikip, madami at ndi ka makapasok o makapili ng papasukan o uupuan mo. Kelangan mo pang mag antay, makipagsiksikan at makipagtulakan sa dami ng mga kaagaw mo. Pero kahit na nakapasok ka man ndi pa rin kasiguruhan un kung magiging maginhawa ang pagpasok at pananatili mo sa loob pero kelangan mo magtiis, tanggapin at siguradong matatapos din. Hindi sa lahat ng oras ibinibigay to-- kelangan mong mag antay o makipagsabayan.

Ain't Love Grand?

Ain't Love Grand?

LOVE is a powerful thing -- it can make or break your life.
LOVE is an unpredictable thing -- you never know when or where to find it.
LOVE is a complicated thing -- the how's, why's, even the when's often cannot be explained.
LOVE is grand in every way -- especially in consequences.

Which is why the idealism that one can live on love alone remains just that -- an idealism. Because the reality is that love cannot operate on its own.

Love needs trust and respect. Without these, love is merely possession. I love you but don't get out of the house, i don't care if you don't get to do what you want to do.

Love needs time. Without this, how can love be felt? How can it be exchanged? How can it grow?It's one thing to always be busy and then try to make up for it, but it's another if you fail to have time for your love. If you can't make time for love, don't pursue it only to leave it hanging.

Love needs financial backup. Though some people might raise their eyebrows and claim it isn't so, this I believe is the reality. How can one pursue a relationship and eventually build a family without being financially able to do so? Don't they say that when poverty strikes in, love often flies out the window? I'm not saying that love = money. Love, as with everything else, needs maintenance -- whether high or low.

Love is GRAND. It needs a full entourage and an able financial backer.

But it all starts with chemistry and perhaps some destiny too. You don't "plan" to love someone, just as you don't "formulate" chemistry to create the sparks.

It just happens.

So You Think You Can Dance

So You Think You Can Dance? No, not the show. 

I meant life. Think you can always dance to it?

 

Nope. Sometimes we miss a beat. Sometimes we can't even get the beat. Other times it seems life is out of sync with us. Why? It's God's design. So we cling to Him, so we learn from Him, so we be reminded that He choreographs everything. No matter what moves we want to do, what turns we choose to take, He is watching over us. 

Then sometimes life is just dandy. We groove to the beat of our chosen music. We (seem to) know the next step to the next stanza. Everything goes as planned. Perhaps because God meant it to be. Unfortunately this lures us into a sense of always being in control, always getting what we want the way we want it. So much so that when the tape runs out, we get lost in the deafening silence and start stumbling around. We often forget that sometimes we have to step back and listen to God's music this time, and not our own. We may not hear it clearly, but we have to believe that it has never stopped playing in our lives.  We have to believe that even if our own music stops, we shouldn't be lost, because we always have His music to listen to, His dance to follow. 

In every step, in every count, there's always a 50/50 chance of stumbling and falling. So if we feel as if we've been stumbling and falling down a lot, bear in mind that there's no other way to go but up. What's important is we don't let the floor block our view. Head up, eyes open, and see the little things unravel before us. We have to try to appreciate what we can see from the bottom, because those may be the ones that can help us go back up. Otherwise, we shall continue to stumble blindly amidst the negativity. 

And as we go back up, let us not forget where we came from -- to keep us grounded. Let us not forget how we stumbled -- so hopefully we won't trip the same way again. Let us not forget the hands that help and the hearts that care -- so we may do the same for others. Let us not forget that there's always His music -- so we don't get lost. 

It's God's choreography, after all. He just lets us freestyle. 

unicah ivah @ 2011

Time to Dance

Blog remake. 2008 blog.

Hi. I’m just new here in this site. =) well, honestly I’m not the type of person who can freely express my feelings thru writings BUT the Lord has spoken to me just now and said. "Do it Now, I'm Here!"

It was already 7:52 am, Sunday March 25th of 2008 when He said that.

Here's the story. When I first reached this site I was really amazed. "All smiles!” I felt the excitement upon browsing the entire site. And what pushes me is that I can create a group here.

So of course it runs in my mind of my precious "talent" haha! For those who don't know yet I'm a DANCER/CHOREOGRAPHER. And then I decided to create a group of all dancers since (as far as I know) there’s none group yet.

But what stopped me is that I had the feeling that people might think that I’m just new here in this site and that I have the guts already to create my own group. But I remembered the Lord. This is for HIM and not for anybody else.

That night I decided to do what I have to do which is to create a Group of Dancers, but I can’t start the whole thing. I don’t know why.

I kept on thinking all night until the sunlight was already peeking on my window. Its already morning but I’m still in the same website and still waiting for myself to fill up that form. And then suddenly, I remembered my Bible.

Before I opened my bible I prayed. I was asking for wisdom and an answer whether I’m going to continue on creating a dance group or not. And when I opened my bible, DAVID is the first word I saw. I remember David that he is one of the disciples of God who knows how to dance.

Particularly it opened in 1 chronicles 22. I read them all until I reached verse 14 and it says

''I have taken great pains to provide for the temple of the Lord a hundred thousand talents of gold, a million talent of silver, quantities of bronze and iron too great to be weighed, and wood and stone. And you may add to them. You have many workmen: stonecutters, masons and carpenters, as well as men skilled in every kind of work in gold and silver, bronze and iron--craftsmen beyond number. Now begin the work, and the Lord be with you.''

Wow! I couldn’t believe He talked to me and gave me the answer to my question. It was really amazing! You know what I did? I shared it to my friend, Lorwin, and to Kathy Day.

He answered me and at the same time I also shared it to them. I know God is talking to me right now and He wants me to come back to His kingdom and serve Him with all my heart and passion. I want to burse up again on the red flaming fire! I want to reach that vision!

Tantrums

Nagising ako. Nanaginip na naman ako. Ikaw na naman. Siguro mashado ko lang iniisip na gusto ko ng taong mag aalaga sakin. Maglalambing. Magmamahal. No pretentions. Hindi nahihiya,Comfortable, yung tipong effortless pag naglambing. Natural. Normal. Ung tipong pag naglambing, lambing agad. Hindi muna kelangan sa paligid kung may nakatingin ba, kasi nakakahiya, kung ano man dahilan at etc. In the first place, ano pakialam nila? baka ba kasi may makakakita sa kanya? baka may magalit?ewan ko. hindi ko alam ang dahilan niya kung bakit hindi na lang siya dumerecho sa ginagawa niya.

Gusto ko smooth. relax. confident. totoong sweet. totoong may nag aalaga. totoong haplos. totoong hawak. totoong lambing. Siguro gusto ko this time ako naman ang inaalagaan. nilalambing. minamahal. Hindi ko sinasabe na wala akong gagawin. It's more than a kiss, holding hands, hugs, sexy time. more than that.

I want more! I miss you. super namimiss kong mainlove. halos mabaliw kasi inlove. Gusto ko ng may makasama lagi. Ayoko mag isa. gusto ko may magpupush sakin sa mga dreams ko. sa mga plans ko. sa relationship namin. Kasama ko mag coffee pag gabi, manood ng dvd, may kasama magkulitan tawanan, Lahat pwede namin gawin. haay.

Tantrums.